My SMH moments were always be made up of good and a bit annoying until this year. As an adult who has very few illnesses, has a wonderful family, and my Masters, I am truly blessed. And what I’d hoped to be an issue I could relieve in a few short weeks to most of the year.
So I’m back. (Maybe I still have a few followers reading this). I apologize to you all for the lengthy absence. There are just some things better kept private, since all I had to talk about was the acute pain I experienced since early this year.
Not only haven’t I posted, after I first informed my Masters of the problem, I kept the extent of the pain to myself. Pain not only debilitates the body it takes over the mind. It was bad enough that it was all I could think about. I had problems editing my authors’ stories, and haven’t been able to write. My days were spent figuring out what I could do, without pain drugs, to function normally again.
I did keep Masters up to date on how I felt, but kept the rest to myself. Again, no one wants to hear those issues all the time. But that was what I was going through. I’d stopped laughing, talking playfully with my Doms, and just wanted to hide in my house.
My right hip and knee were the issue. I saw my chiropractor weekly, which he took care of my neck, shoulders, and spine, but not my hips and legs. The last time I left the store, I was screaming silently in my from the ordeal, so I started ordering my groceries to be delivered. I began sitting at the table to prep meals. Standing for long periods of time was the worst, I didn’t enjoy cooking anymore. Being robbed of one my most enjoyable experiences was disheartening.
When Master came to town in July, I hobbled behind him, walking to the restaurants. I wore a sciatic knee brace, and used a pillow to prop my leg on. I loved seeing him, but had hoped to feel good enough to do the things we normally did. I did experience fisting for the first time, so that weekend was a total bust.
I take my health seriously, and mainly into my own hands. Thankfully, I’ve worked through the problem enough that I’m pain free for a few days, and just a dull ache on others My chiropractor and I have worked out a new routine, and I see my massage therapist to assist with the issues.
I also am increasing stretching and yoga, which both Masters have been after me to do. They came at it from the perspective and toning my body after losing the weight and flexibility. However, I have to be careful because too much aggravates the problem.
The best thing that has happened in a long time was spending a long weekend with Master Michael two weeks ago. We rented a cabin in the woods. It was relaxing, only the sounds of nature around us. We had some kinky fun in the woods, me tied between two trees, but that was cut short from the dozens of mosquito bites I received on my legs and hips. It was a mystery why they chose that day to munch on me when we’d been sitting outside behind the house and I hadn’t gotten bitten in the backyard. The wonderful thing was I wasn’t in a lot of pain. And we’re discussing another trip next year.
I came away from that weekend renewed mentally, emotionally, and physically. It was my right hip and knee that gave me the problem. So driving longer than a few minutes exacerbated the problem. And I’d been staying home, sometimes not leaving the house for weeks.
The days before I left to meet Master Michael, I feared I couldn’t physically or emotionally, driving alone, two hours from home. However, as I left the house and got drove farther away, excitement replaced fear. A sense of renewal blossomed inside me.
I love traveling, but most of those are vacations with family and to the beach. This was my first vacation spending time in the woods, and without family. It was an adventure to get out on my own. The day was sunny. The drive relaxing as there were few cars on the road. I didn’t put the top down on my convertible on the Interstate, but it was fun driving my little sports car.
The highlight at the end of that long drive to the woods, was seeing and being with Master. Being his, obeying him, giving him whatever he desired, and him taking care of me, too.
This year, I’m thankful for so many things. Family, friends, my Masters, but most of all, I am so thankful, and blessed to have worked through the horrible pain I lived with. It isn’t gone, and I’m sure I’ll always have some, but I didn’t let it beat me. And believe me, there were days and weeks, I didn’t want to get out of bed.
Thanks to my subscribers and anyone who’s reading this. I appreciate y’all so much. I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving.
I’ll post again soon.
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